I would like to invite you to have a conversation. I true heart to heart conversation about the “state of your heart”. A dialogue with yourself or those you feel safe to expose your own insecurities.
I would like to invite you to empty your hands and pockets of the stones you want to throw. You’ve heard the saying, “those who live in glass houses should not throw stones”.
This is a response or reaction, I’m honestly not sure which one, to events, people’s responses and reactions to what is going on in the world around me. I’ll start with a confession…
I’m not Black
I’m not a police officer
I’m not a doctor
I’m not a scientist
I’m not a lot of other “categories” that we use to label and distinguish one from another.
I am, however, someone who has had a change of heart. If you had asked me a few years ago, “Do you believe people really are doing the best they can?” My emphatic answer would have been, “Hell no!” You see, I believed people, and especially myself, could always be doing something to be better, think better, smarter, creativer (yes, I know that’s not a word), etc. The drive for perfection, or at least the illusion of perfection, is hard wired in me. There was no room for failure or disappointment in myself.
I’ve had a change of heart. I’ve changed my “perfection” lens to a “doing the best I can” lens. Perfection leaves little to no room for change. It leaves no room to pivot. Perfection leaves no room to learn or unlearn. There is only one Perfect One, and it’s not me.
I’ve done some deep soul searching work over the past few years. It’s been brutal. It’s been beautiful. I continue to do the work. I continue to lean into the discomfort of learning and unlearning about the world at work around me. I continue to get curious about who I am and continue to explore my beliefs and why I believe the way I do. I push myself to learn. I examine when I need to unlearn something. I read. I listen. I write.
I am doing the best I can. I am enough.
A Net of Hope 